So I was awake with my alarm blazing at 5am………awake with eyes open, and even out of the bed to get a drink. So why did I miss my 6am class?? This is the mystery. Now, I realize I have crappy willpower, but the motivation is totally there. I went directly back to bed hearing the voice in my head say convincingly that I could just pop into the 5:15pm class. WHAT?!?! I think in the back of my mind I always knew the make up option of another time slot was there, but I just chose to NOT acknowledge it on purpose for this very reason. Skinny Bitch mentioned it yesterday in our conversation of “where the heck have you been” and now, it’s a logged option in my brain. I swear I confuse myself far more than anyone else can.
I am just downright mad at this phenomenon. Ok, fine – so many of you are laughing right now because I suppose for most people you just either do something or you don’t. I want some of that please. My world and my thinking need a little black and white right now……simplicity of a solid mindset would be super helpful. So, tell me peoples……….what does one do to counter the voices in your head that just take charge in a split second and before you know it, you are back in bed for a lousy, restless additional hour of sleep. I need answers. And maybe cake. Oh but there WILL be an ass beating workout tonight, so stay tuned for the punishment update. Happy Humper Day! *hugs* M